Let me hear you call my name.
Jacinta.July 1988 just the way you are. simplistic yet loving. More than words.
I know you love me, too.
*year-end trip with sweets!*graduation trip? *sleepovers! *wedding planner classes! *early childhood classes? *longchamp/kate spate bag *watch *a pair of new sunglasses You were here too?
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actually there's no need for this entry, until...
Thursday, March 30, 2006
YOUR Perfect ManInstructions:The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lovers. Specify the gender of the target. Tag 4 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying that they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again. what a nice job that stef, my best pal has for me. knew it when she tagged on my board, telling me that i have something to do and the instructions were on her blog...hmph. right then, though i have not met my mr right yet, unlike my dear friend. here's it, the 8 points of my perfect man. (not in the order of priority.hahas.) 1. he can choose not to give in to me, but to those areas that he did not give in, he must replace it with love. 2. know how to set his priorities right. 3. must be a family man, although career cannot be neglected. 4. must be considerate, and filial to his parents. 5. should love me the same amount as much as i do to him. 6. cannot be too egoistic. 7. well-tempered, understanding. 8. love kids. and the next 4 on my list would be... - jazreel. - enting. - genevieve. - sing yong. mixture of genders. well, no point sending it back to stef when i know what's hers. hahas. and without her mentioning it, it's quite obvious. hahas. well, for the 4 that i have tagged on, happy thinking...! well, that's it for tonight. take care ppl. nites. everything seems to get on as they were.
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
been slacking at home these few days. other than helping mummy with the housechores, next is my tv programmes. hahas.just fixed on my retainers yesterday. so difficult to talk manz. but still trying to adapt to it. and stef came over today. collected her 30 bucks from me, and of cos, she always come for a reason. she borrowed vcds from my place. and she will return them to me next week, when i meet up with her. how clever can she be? hahas. lol. everything seems to move on and better as things were. seemed that there were no changes at all. when in fact, many things has already happened and changed the way of how certain people live their life. important people, we always say. family, best friends, lovers, life partners. but in fact, we named them important, who actually rank the most importance of all? or maybe, some would say, this and that have equal status. is that so? no matter what, the importance level of one will always be higher than another, becos we can never handle both at the same time. sometimes, we just can't have the best of both worlds. another 3 weeks...
Sunday, March 26, 2006
haiz. another 3 weeks. and i will be back to school and it will be so busy. TEP attachment...and lots more. i dislike doing countdown, especially for such stuffs. pretty hectic today. cousins came over as usual. then we took on babysitters' job. taking care of children is so hard. but i still love kids. hahas. oh ya, my tuition kid. she did quite well in her CA1, consider that quite well done. hahas. and just finished watching a hong kong drama series. hahas. so nice. alright. i am a tv addict, as said before already. hahas. but then on the other hand, i have stuffs to complete before my holiday ends. and it is still some time away from completion. alright then. tiredsome tonight. enough of blogging. take care peeps. nights. well, sometimes things doesn't go the way u want.
Thursday, March 23, 2006
well, went for the emd yesterday nite. pretty tired upon arriving home. hahas. but we took lots of photos. hahas. and we met up with our juniors too. so it was pretty pretty nice. so the photos. shall wait for fiona to upload them first. hahas. the concert was not too bad. quite nice. too bad stef wasn't able to go, she was sick. haiz.as for sino. i don't really know what's bothering you. but i guess as much it wouldn't be friends, neither money. then it should be women le. well, u can drop me a email or something if u feel that something is troubling you. my ears are there for listening. ;) all rites then, just a short entry. back to my stuffs le. ;) take care ppl. oh ya. forgotten to update... i remove my braces le!! finally!!! happy with the way your life is?
Sunday, March 19, 2006
been staying at home watching tv, esp today. with the afternoon spent on vcd, then the nite on the Star Idol Finals, with Bryan winning. hahas. the chalet is over. next would come the emd 3 days later. then my holidays would be over soon. and if not mistaken, HRM is gonna to complete their TEP in their first semester. actually how satisfied are we till now in our lives? are we really happy about it, or are we just basically living our life as the time ticks off? in my family, i could say yes. all along communication is the key. in my friends social circle, perhaps it did. with my best friends around. just like i have mentioned, my social circle might have widen lots, but it didn't get deeper. but actually how many got the idea? few or perhaps...none? i might have known many friends, but did the number of friends i have, have actually known me better? nope. and maybe some who thought that they knew me well all along, sorry. u didn't. with that not referring to stef, she knows me the way she wants to, the way she needs to. in my relationship aspect, maybe not. all along, i have been hoping that it hasn't been blank. well, who doesn't wish for her mr. right? but i have been enjoying the freedom that i have been given in this blank aspect. and with something filled in suddenly, it just feels so weird, that the space doesn't belong to me one person anymore. perhaps no one should deprive of this except my mr. right, which he hasn't appear. all rites. got enough. getting back to my stuffs. take care ppl. nights. p.s for sino. treasure her well again since she is part of your world now. sometimes a second chance do help. but sometimes it does harm. i am not pouring cold water over. it's just that sometimes...some things do happen for a reason, and a complicated one too. back from the chalet.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
heys. i'm back from the chalet. back since yesterday but i was too tired to blog in my entry for yesterday. the chalet, considered it a refresh for us peeps from jwss e1 and e2...hahas. supposed so, i presume. and we hadn't really had a good sleep though. imagine i only had 2 hours of sleep? hahas. and i was really very very tired. but we girls did have lots to talk about. hahas. on the first night, we had only fiona, lifang, enting, stef and myself. we had pillow fight la. and i didn't know that my best buddy has strong legs. hahas. and there were those guys. has been some time since i met them. and well, i guess they were surprised that i was there for the chalet. and then that night around 12 plus near 1, i went out with stef to get some stuffs. it was a long walk. but somehow it was comfortable, best pal was beside. and one funny stuff happened la. i better dun mention it here before stef kills me. hahas. lol. and i felt somehow of bad leaving stef there though i know i was supposed to accompany her. but luckily tc went over to accompany her yesterday after i left. so i suppposed she must be feeling so good. hahas. and at the very least, i felt better with tc around with her. at least he will take care of her, to make sure she take her meals and have enough of rest. and i will be meeting stef and jwss peeps again next wed for the EMD. hahas. and will be meeting stef earlier. she will drop by my house to visit my mummy, hahas. oh ya. results. all pass. gpa was slightly higher than last semester. so i felt it was fine. but guess need to put in more effort. enough of that. all rights. take care ppl. p.s thanks sino for the bracelet. it was much appreciated. ;) pretty hectic this week.
Monday, March 13, 2006
went out with family ytd to marina square. hahas. got my bag. then also got sis her birthday gift. she chose it herself. a wallet. yups. then mummy didn't want to drive down to town. so we took public transport. and our legs were like...wow...tired. yups, that's the word.then chalet is on tml. but not planning to stay on for so many days. it all depends. and partially. my exams results. cos mummy doesn't want to check for me. so guess i will have to check them myself. hahas. then meeting time not set yet. so have to confirm with stef later, perhaps in the night. then has been thinking though. having friends of the opposite gender when one is in a relationship is fine. but standing in the shoes of myself, i might not be able to take it though i say so, it takes time to get used to. but we will still get affected in any case. and even the most beautiful relationship will reach its end when time ends. and perhaps he was right, i am reluctant to go into any relationships at this moment is becos i m afraid of the pain that i might have to go through once more, plus, it has been such a long time since i had one anyways. but this is not the reason of why i didn't accept. although ppl might say that, well, it doesn't mean that getting into a relationship will get u only pain. but u will get happiness too, if a couple is happy enough. but who can promise that when two starts their fate together? nobody...isn't it? not even the parties involved themselves. it's a risk. but ppl have to consider if this risk is worth taking, unless you have loved your partner so so much. well, enough such crapping. i hasn't done that for a long time. don't know what's wrong with me. whatever it is. take care ppl. something i thought...
Saturday, March 11, 2006
went out for a birthday party today...hahas. so many cousins' birthday parties on the go. then reach home. got stuck to my tv. for my tv programmes. then syafie called. so chat with him awhile on the phone. and found out that he actually knows me somehow quite well huh...hahas. we were talking about relationships though. and perhaps i might have known it all along, but i never went to think further than that, becos i thought it was not necessary. my latest philosophy is that being single is the widest freedom becos there is no stress of burdens...but when reduntant stress starts acting on you, esp the affairs of the heart matters, it's like somehow of a poison. it will make u go out of breathe eventually. well, then i don't deny that i m searching for my mr right to appear. but the one who appeared now, is not my type of guy. i don't know whether he really does gets the idea or not. but all that kind of sincerely hope for a chance or something is making me getting out of breathe, and its adding the unknown stress from no where. i have been leading this carefree, without burden life till present. and there it is, now, interrupting into it. i don't know what i should say to make u give it up and then search for another one that will walk into your life. but definitely it's not me. i might have played a part in your life, but sorry, u hasn't played any in my life. you know who am i referring to. no point mentioning it here. and needless to reply any on my tagboard. well, i might seem to sound harsh on this. but i already clearly mentioned that i don't want to raise any false hopes. becos it will hurt even further. all rites. nites ppl. pretty tired.
Friday, March 10, 2006
went out with mummy today, to the library. got some novels to spend my time away during the holidays. then at the same time. shopping. bought a skirt and a top. and guess who i saw...xianan and pei shan! hahas. alright. i was a little slow in recognising them being around me...hahas. then after that, not long after, i saw stanley and his friends. not too bad huh. meeting ppl from my secondary school. then my weekend is also gonna to be busy too. birthday parties...shopping....hahas. then next week too. getting out of the house. for the chalet. but might not spend so many days there though i have the time. it can be quite bored after all, if there is nothing to do there, other than taking care of stef. hahas. lolz. ok. just a small update. nites ppl. take care. something happened that i hope it didn't.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
went out with stef today. indeed, she did slimmed down by that a little. and it's been like 3 months haven i seen her? well, 8 hours...of shopping. to bugis then to marina square then to suntec city. hahas. longest shopping hours ever since the endless times we went out before. and i was searching for my bag though. and stef. clothes. and bags, if they were possible within her finances. hahas. and perhaps i did something that was cruel, but i feel that i have to, before raising the false hopes for him and then hurt him throughly. for sino: i have to be frank, i don't want to make you feel that u still have that chance and wait for me, becos, u know it clearly that it is impossible. i guess u already placed yourself in my shoes, the feelings no longer lingers, or i should say, since i could start another relationship after the break up with you, u should know that everything is over. and it has been such a long time le. no point mentioning those. and u have to pick yourself up fast. people who care about you are getting worried and as i say they will start tagging on your board. they wouldn't ask if u are alright this time. instead they will offer u words of advice. u must get over it fast and quick with. i don't want you to waste your time on something that u clearly know the answer that is already available. all rights...need to get back to my stuffs. take care ppl. i live the way my heart tells me to.
Sunday, March 05, 2006
been busy helping mummy to do housechores today. then at the same time, went online for a while and spoke to tc. hahas. the usual stuffs again. ;) stef decides to change the date of outing again. well, what to do...has to go along with her. that's what as her bestie must adapt to. and in any ways, i am used to it already. hahas. its the usual stuffs. and just so happen while talking online just now. one of my conversations was discussing about why my relationship aspect has been very quiet..hahas. well, its normal when people hasn't see in you, and you haven seen in someone else. well, then i just replied, such things can wait. since it will eventually arrives when time comes. no point rushing into things then come and regret on any decisions that has been made or whatever that has been done. i have all along been someone who follows according to my heart to make decisions. and i have never like impulsive decision-making. maybe becos my character makes me out to be such. and moreover certain things has already been made clear when situations arise. well, feeling tired le. need my bedtime le. take care ppl. holidays has been great so far.
Saturday, March 04, 2006
hahas. just been holidays for 2 weeks. but guess it's not too bad yet. enjoying my vcds, tv programmes...hahas. tuition job is still on as usual even if i am on my holidays. then in another week or so, the chalet is on le. so fast right. then after that, the EMD. but to my surprise is that stef says there are restrictions to what u can wear to EMD. i mean well, formal. but the restrictions set...aren't a little too over already? oh well, whatever.been quite busy during holidays. don't think that i have been slacking. hahas. then next week, getting out with stef. but i need to coordinate her timetable. hahas. aiya. she is also on her tv programmes, well, what else can she be on. after she wakes up in the late morning. hahas. lol. anyway, haven't plan where to go yet at this moment. hahas. everytime also i decide where to go. my brain cells dying le...hahas. another 2 weeks, would also meant that my braces will soon be off from me. hahas. been waiting for this day manz. my this present blogskin should remain for sometime though. i supposed so. hahas. all rites then. that's it for the time being. take care ppl. the start of a new month.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
its the first day of a new month. and i know, firstly, my dear buddy has just finished her exams today. and her mind has only her darling in mind and her tv programme. consider that as a complaint alright. hahas. if it's this case, then perhaps her birthday present this year...she don't need any except from her darling le. then maybe i shouldn't work so hard in thinking what to get for her le, and thus spending so much effort. hahas. just kidding. how can i not spend so much effort when i already promised her a gift this year?the start of a new month. doesn't seem to have much of an impact on me. life is still going on as per normal. life is still that of the carefree. no extra burdens, neither worries. things will still go on as a normal routine cycle. but naturally. some bad intuition just come to mind when i think of some stuffs. these kind of feelings doesn't come often, but when it comes to mind, its a feeling that i cannot describe. it doesn't apply to me. but its ppl who surround me. not my family in this case. just hope such feelings will go off and nothing will happen. yups, praying hard. all rites. not only my buddy, stef has her tv time. i have mine too. off for my tv programme le. take care peeps. |
Goodbye.
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