Let me hear you call my name.
Jacinta.July 1988 just the way you are. simplistic yet loving. More than words.
I know you love me, too.
*year-end trip with sweets!*graduation trip? *sleepovers! *wedding planner classes! *early childhood classes? *longchamp/kate spate bag *watch *a pair of new sunglasses You were here too?
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Friday, June 30, 2006
alright, last entry for the month of june... just reached home not long after attending grandparents' birthday dinner...wah..only 2 tables, but guess what, its ultra noisy...imagine with one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight...EIGHT kids running about...!!! and especially with my youngest cousin...argh...cos he is only reaching 2 years old, can't u ever imagine i have to chase him around...? hahas. lols. alright that's comical...;)it's the end of week 11 already. tuition plus birthday bash tml. sun...tuition also...seems to be bloated with tuitions this weekend...and it's 1st july tml...so fast. the month of july le...dunno what to do this weekend other than tuitions still...it's sat tml. promised to entertain someone during work (if i have time and it's possible..hahas. and i always do keep my promises de...>.<) maybe thru email or msg...if not if he insist then direct line...that's provided he is bored...hahas. lols. who knows if there are many calls tml? hahas. but saturday is a day for relaxing...trust me..=) and know something. tradewinds team should be ahead in terms of work of our schedule...hahas. hopefully on 10 jul we can finish off work earlier than take half a day flexi for the whole team then go and celebrate...hahas...helping them to clear flexi lehs...lols.;) but still glad that they are around to add to the fun to the team...and definitely a big present to my birthday this year even though no one special is gonna to be around...;) did role play today...all of us did practically well, much becos to the reason that we were experienced enough...so role play...3 hours is sufficient le...though our phone skills...kinda a bit off...hahas. and another stuff...tradewinds team is definitely not done with their teasing of me yet...especially kim yuen. she is taking revenge ar...hahas...lucky fennie is not...but she still ask me this morning to make sure that nothing fishy is going on...lols. and now shaun joins in the fun too...hmph.=) and well, cannot anyhow spread de...there might be no interest, no chemistry...which no one knows...hahas. lols. and no one will go and ask about this de mahz...hahas..>.< alright. i am feeling so tired le...sleeping time!! hahas...and ppl, hopefully the weekend is a good one for u guys. take care and goodnites. Thursday, June 29, 2006
been feeling pretty tired today. slept at 1 something last night, woke up at 5 something for school...and guess what. i was sneezing so badly in the call centre this morning...!! and kim yuen was like urging me to take flexi leave to get home and rest(cos i think she worry that i will spread the virus over to others...), but i wouldn't want to. and moreover, fennie and priscilla were on mc today...poor them...sick...it's seems like becos tradewinds team has not clear any of their mc within our attachment at tradewinds, and that when are back in school, we seemed to clear everything. flexi leave and mc...hahas...but in the end. the tradewinds team was still being granted of our flexi leave at 330 to 600...hahas...cos we finished our work already...whole team getting flexi...that's like so unexpected i should say...hahas...then supposed to come home and rest, but instead went to accompany mummy out...=) and dear me. the tradewinds team is thinking otherwise of certain things now...hahas. lols. but they have STM de...they will forget in no time...;) wonder how to drag the tradewinds team to clear flexi for my birthday...hmm...hahas...well, if can't still got fennie to drag in...becos marcel would have finished up her flexi leave already...that one, leave it to think other times then. when time is near. have sec sch event next week, took flexi already. half day. and i wanna go k-box. wanna to do so many things. hahas. alright. knew that. i m a greedy person. hahas. lols. so fast, end of the week le..it's friday tml. wonder what to do during weekends...hmmz. and its only the end of june...well. hopefully my phone charges wouldn't increase due to sms...hahas. need to see how to arrange and keep it nice...hahas. lols. been a tiring day. aching body. sleepy mind. lazy hands. hahas. alright. take care peeps. enjoy ur weekend. nites. Wednesday, June 28, 2006
been quite busy in the call centre today. cos we were having discussion with regards to the stuffs we have to do for the next few weeks. so it meant that my flexi leave cannot be cleared le...schedule so tight, how to clear it...though we are working indeed faster than the scheduled plan...though a day of work, of cos the tradewinds team sure have fun. talking, making fun of peeps (though i myself got made fun of a little too...all becos fennie said the wrong stuffs...hahas.), if not was on mp3 listening to music. hahas. and must be alert not to be caught. and alright, didn't know that my maths was that bad until we were calculating the numbers of calls to make each day for each person...lols.=) but in the end, i still understood it alright. hahas.so tempted to take up driving now...becos someone tempted me...!!hmph...u know who u are...hahas.but i need to wait for another few weeks and then i can apply le...hahas. but wonder how long would i take to pass it all? that's a question to think about. ;) and no worries. i am feeling alright. and sure. i need to do some catching up with shuting and catherine. cos we are all separated into different places ar...some in tep, some in classical...but right now, hard to have time. wanted to take flexi on birthday. but it seems like schedule is not giving me a chance to...and wanted to drag fennie and siying together as well..!! hahas. cos tradewinds team should have the most hours of flexi leave...;) help them to clear it mahs...hahas. alright. time for some sleep. cos there's school tml when someone doesn't have to work. hmph. hahas. alright. take care peeps. nites. Tuesday, June 27, 2006
phew. second day at the call centre with tradewinds team back in school. supposed to complete quite a few matters. gonna to start mystery calling next week...and we are already done with the evaluation form...the scenarios...hmmz...should be completed tml. guess what, instead of 10, there are 30...hahas. cos we need to make quite a number of calls, can't possible be asking the same thing. it will reveal our status de...=) but indeed with the tradewinds group around. it still, added lots of fun and laughters within us. we are still who we are when we are in tradewinds, just that we are in CRM tee that's all. hahas. feeling relieved and relaxed with them around. cos i know they are just that noisy always (even if it's without me...opps...lols.) then need to start the summary report and personal selling report too. cos ours would be quite long due to our external attachment with tradewinds. and also. met up with catherine after school to get home together. kinda nice feeling cos it has been such a time since we last went home together. ever since we started our second year?anyway. had a pleasant surprise that got me into tears yesterday. daddy sent an email to me yesterday to console me on certain matters. imagine i only meet him around 40 days in a year, and for that certain matter, i couldn't open up to him...cos i don't know how to explain myself to him at all...! tks to mummy for opening it up to him for me. (and well, i roughly rmb that i couldn't open my mouth to say it out to mummy too, but still i did it in the end...) further, it was in school. can't expect me to be tearing in the call centre right...and fennie was on flexi. luckily i have marcel with me. tks gal! also many tks to fennie, marcel, celene, siying, catherine, shuting, jin xian as well.=) well, it's the mid of the week tml. getting back to school to complete report as usual. gonna to submit personal selling orders on thurs. sales...hmm...not too bad ya...;) then this friday. have grandparents birthday bash. sat, my cousin's birthday bash. and i want to go k-box. but presently, no cash at the moment. plus the time is tight...well, i'll be more patient. hahas. =) and i am deciding how to use up my flexi leave...still left with 16 hrs i think. well, shall see how about it...getting back to the report. shall blog in another time soon. take care and nites. Sunday, June 25, 2006
been a noisy day at home today...woke up early in the morning at 7 just to accompany mummy to the market...didn't want to go actually...but well, since promised mummy already...then just fulfill it...but then, upon reaching home. guess what? i went back to bed and slept for another 2 more hours...hahas. alright. i am lazy by nature...it's a well known fact at home...=) then my cousins came over with my grandparents...and well, the adults have their world and pushed the kids to us...my sis and i were like so angry...everytime when they come over, it would be like this...but still have to accept that they are older than us...and it's respect that we have to do...in the end, still do it for them...but quite unwillingly too...everytime also being called to do these and that...haiz. that's enough le. getting back to school tml. the block leave is over. should i name that as finally over...? hahas. anyway, should be done for some reports and admin matters when i get back to school. but well, expected it coming too. then as for p team, the proposal that rong ci and i handed in 2 weeks ago. is still not being approved yet...so i guess it has to be postponed till further notice...;( meeting all the peeps in the call centre tml..hahas. miss them kinda quite a lot too...! alright. it's late already. time to turn in. waking up early tml. nights! Saturday, June 24, 2006
it's been another day too...what was i doing yesterday? hmm...woke up very unwillingly...went for my dental in the afternoon..got my retainers done tightly to my teeth...(which now it's painful..), and had my dentist to note that my wisdom tooth is growing...(and hopefully it's not hurting me...) and mummy still have to pay 32 bucks for every review...well, the next one is in half a year's time...and well, the day moves on...about today...got myself woke up becos i had tuition in the morning...my student forgot to remind her mummy about my pay...well, then have to get it next week, if not it's consider that my shopping fees are not paid this time round le...cos the amount i spent came up to quite a sum this time round...hahas...well. it's the GSS period now..it's wasted not to get stuffs, esp when we like it? hahas. then had lunch and dinner packeted back into the house...cos there are no more ingredients in the fridge...going to the market with mummy tml to get groceries for the week...;) oh ya. spent another amount on dvds...=) talking about that, my devil beside you is still with pei fen, must remind her...then my mr fighting is with siying...and she said she will return me next week...hopefully she is enjoying her shopping trip overseas...!! (and dun forget about presents for us ok...lols.) another 4 more weeks in the current stopover..more reports would need to be completed. working on the personal selling report during this block leave week...hopefully it wouldn't be too rushing when time comes...though hasn't spent much time in the call centre within these 10 weeks, trust me, ppl in the call centre are fun to be with...gonna to miss them so much...guess there would be a gathering or something...at the end of this? hopefully the next stopover would be fun and hopefully majority of them are of the same stopover? anyway, it has been some time since i last went k-box...should pick a time to go with frens...hahas. maybe the new colleagues at tradewinds? or ppl in the call centre? or shuting they all? hahas. so many to choose from...=) alright, it's been quite tiring for these two days already...further grandparents are coming over tml...house would be as noisy...with my cousins around...hopefully i will have time to relax around before school starts again on monday in the call centre, officially with the tradewinds group complete. :) and it's late already. time for lights off. nights peeps! Thursday, June 22, 2006
 woke up at 10 this morning, slack around in the house then, went out with stef this afternoon...mainly to pass her the birthday present she rightfully owned...=) and i already forgotten how long has i not met her since our last meet, which was before i got attached? so at least a month plus to two months we have not met each other, in terms of physically...well, then met her at scotts, cos we wanted to take the beef noodles there, trust me, the beef noodles there are good...(other than the one at east coast...hahas.) then we took a walk at far east plaza...then follow that we went to esprit, then cineleisure...then our last place, guess where did we go...? marina square...by train of cos. of cos before entering marina square, we took a look at city link first...and all becos of stef, i can't get my adidas bag...hmph. hahas...well, for me...amount spent today...three tops (i owe my sis one...), one pair of shoes, and one skirt? and that's not counting the food stuffs alright...haven't counted how much i spent in exact, but for sure, i am not going shopping for the next few weeks...;) went quite a few stores, and imagine how crowded is mango? it's so packed, all becos of offers...but the designs...not for me and stef...looked around in puma, nike...didn't catch anything to get too...and in the end, ended today's trip with venezia's ice cream...recommended by stef alright...it's reasonable pricing plus it's nice...esp mango favour! hahas... actually wanted to visit a place very badly...it has been at least months that i have last went...but today's schedule can't fit it in...i miss the times sitting there, enjoying the breeze, feeling relaxed...perhaps it works even better than going to the beach... anyway, been a busy day. going for dental tml. nights peeps. Wednesday, June 21, 2006
went for facial in the morning today...well, fancy it's my first time going for a facial...cos all along my complexion has been maintaining as it is...with hardly any outbreaks...hahas...don't be envious alright...lols...but the facial is kinda expensive...but i have mummy to pay for me this time...=) and i am not scheduled on any next facial appt yet...but it's kinda nice having a facial while taking time to relax...but my back is not getting any better...well, supposed to meet stef out tml afternoon since i was just off the phone with stef, and she just came back from camp and she contacted me...but mummy hasn't granted the permission for it yet, cos she said that she was tired and anything, tml morning...haiz...and she complained that i went out too many times this week...well. did i? mon was becos i needed to do present shopping with tradewinds peeps...tues outing with darling was planned in advance de ar...today, didnt go out anywhere other than facial and home? and all i asked of is to get out with stef tml, this is not too demanding of me right? further, stef's present has been lying too long in the house le, it's time to be passed to her already...and friday? dental appt that's all...and i am not going out on weekends. what is there not to permit me to get out tml...? and we are only meeting at 130 with the curfew time at 7...? haiz. whatever. and with mummy getting on a job soon, time spent at home is going to be lesser...neither i can depend on my best pal to always be hearing my issues...not darling too, since he is busy with his soccer trainings, and after attachments, he is also tired le. don't wish to always bother him down late into the night...but learning to be independent, does it mean that i have to learn how to solve any kinds of problems on my own...every year on my birthday, mummy and daddy is bound to wish me...and becos a celebration is always held, no presents from them...but will there be a time that they will forget it when they are busy this year? this year, i don't need cake-cutting, neither presents. i just needed accompany. but perhaps it might be difficult still. had enough. mood has changed for tonight...not feeling too good also. anw, nites ppl. Tuesday, June 20, 2006
supposed to wake up at 815 today? instead...laze on bed till 835...hahas...in the end, somehow was late in meeting darling...so reached the destination later than the expected time i told darling last night...then went off to bugis to shop for my clothes...but guess what...? i didn't managed to find any that can suit for the event that i am attending...not even when i went to bugis street...fancy thinking that i might get something from there, but well, guess that those that i saw today didn't suit me...instead, darling got himself a shirt...ohwells. i think i'll have to keep on searching if not then i would flip my closet le...was looking for something plain and yet kinda formal enough...at least presentable? and it was still sweet of him to accompany me around, with me well knowing that he is very tired...and needed more of his sleep...though he took a whole day of flexi leave...and it's a nice date today...20.06.2006...and these kind of nice dates can only happen in the next 6 years' time...till the year 2012...? when the date would reflect 20.12.2012...but with today's date taking into consideration, it's only meant that it's less than a month to my birthday...well, i know it kinda weird broadcasting birthdays on my own blog...but it's my eighteenth one...mummy is not planning any celebrations this year becos i have been celebrating it since i was one...hopefully there would be surprises, hopefully romantical enough. =) it's been a tiring day today...fancy falling asleep in the train and bus while on the back home...? anyway, our efforts paid off when i heard that tradewinds peeps are happily surprised and satisfied with what we have done and gave to them...;) alrighty. another long day tml...i supposed. facial plus tuition...and so fast, it's the mid of the week already... Monday, June 19, 2006
been out the whole day today with the tradewinds group, busy getting presents for the colleagues...met fennie, kim yuen, priscilla at causeway point in the morning...went round shopping...but cannot find everything that we wanted. so in the end, proceed to lot 1...but fennie has something on, that she have to rush to meet her bf first, becos he was in great headache...so in the end she met us at tradewinds...and did i mention that we took a cab down to tradewinds becos we were rushing for time...? hahas...and made jin xian wait for us at the office...kinda feel bad about it though...=) but well, hopefully they would like the presents then. and our efforts would be paid off...actually wanted to accompany darling for his hospital visit this morning becos he injured his heel...but darling didn't want me to accompany him though...looking at fennie's case today...makes me feel that i am not meticulous enough yet...but becos we don't want to be too dependent on each other until next time we can't get off from each other...but well, darling told me that there was nothing serious after seeing the doctor today...and i would be seeing him tml...so i will check it out tml instead...and alone it's my block leave this week, other than tml that i would be seeing him...i don't know if weekends he is coming over or not...if not then it would be monday before i will meet darling again...in school this time...and i already updated my friend's list with darling's address, finally he is willing to get a blog...cos all along i thought he was lazy to place his entries...=) meeting darling tml early in the morning...second day of my block leave...it's gonna be a nice day, especially with darling around...then following days, there would be more activities coming up though...so my block leave, kinda as busy as a normal school week just that i need not go back to school that's all...=) alright. it's time for my show now...take care peeps... Saturday, June 17, 2006
   it marks my last day with tradewinds officially today...just at 4pm? felt a sense of unwillingness to get back to school the week after my block leave is over...cos the atmosphere at tradewinds is too comfortable le...especially on saturdays...=) we took some photos before we left the office...the background is the office area that we work in when we report at tradewinds though...simply just nice...;) and for the first time in the 9 weeks, i met pris...cos our schedules doesn't allow us to meet...and i nearly already forgotten how she look like...but still, i saw her today...;) went for dinner at swensens at ps with chin ta and jin xian too...the temps...delia can't make it as she has something on...had nice chats with them and went on with dinner...8 people, 2 main courses, 6 baked rice...hahas...and lastly one giant earthquake...!!! with favours like sticky chey chocolate, thin mint, strawberry, frosted chocolate malt, lime, orange, vanilla...must be drooling already right...hahas...then we went around ps shopping for a while...it's the GSS period still...then i managed to buy a top from esprit...pink in colour...quite like it, and it's comfortable too...=) plus the price is reasonable enough...;) gonna to give tuition tml morning and do some shopping, well, not clothes, but home stuffs...with mummy and sis they all...darling would be having his own programme which is his match...and that, he is having his match on sunday for this period of time i supposed so...so glad that it was my block leave next week and he has flexi hours to take still...then it would begin my block leave already...been waiting for this period since 17 april...and now, it has come...time just kinda pass fast...too fast in fact...so many things happened within these 2 months...got posted into the call centre, then got the chance to work at tradewinds, got myself attached...and now, completion of external attachment at tradewinds...indeed it has been 2 months plus since the start of this semester...=) alright, needed my rest le...felt somehow tired even if it was the last day of work...nites and take care... Friday, June 16, 2006
well, another peaceful day passed at tradewinds, couldn't bear to leave the office though...and it's my last day tml...officially. well, getting off for dinner with the peeps at PS tml...and along with us would be the temps too...!hahas...and moreover i would not be seeing everyone in office tml..kinda feel sad about that...how i wish if i have another attachment, i still want to be attached to tradewinds...if i could...well, darling wouldn't be able to pick me up though, cos he has his matters to attend to...but well, he was sweet enough to pick me up and send me home today...(just that the time was kinda rushing a little...so sorry darling...) haven't seen him for only 2 days, but i miss him so much...and after tml, it would be my block leave week already...getting out with the tradewinds team ppl on mon for stuffs to complete, tues for darling, wed for facial and tuition, thurs, hopefully i meet stef, fri dental appt...it seems like i am booked for the whole week...but well, no stress though...=) and that's the point...and perfectly to the point, i enjoyed my times with my friends, but especially with my dearest darling...just met him not long...but missing him already...missing his hugs, his warmth and his everything...;) and further, uncle han kiat thought that darling was a quiet guy...which turn out that he is not in front of me...hahas...maybe becos he is not familiar with him...that's why...darling could click on well with mummy...and i can see that mummy dotes on him lots...maybe that's showing signs that she dotes on me too...hahas...well, perhaps nothing to be jealous about...cos it's normal for mummy to show her doting on darling too...which meant that her impression of darling has all along been good...=) well, it's another day for me tml...kinda tired...getting off to bed now...nites ppl... oh yes, did i forgot to mention? siying and i want to go Maldives...but it is too expensive to go...but the place looks ultra nice...ultra beautiful...but it's ideal for couples and honeymooners...=) hahas. Thursday, June 15, 2006
well, it seems like the last week is giving all of us a difficult period to pass. i thought that would only happen to the retail dept. but it seems like i was affected too, just this morning...i quote the wrong price to an agent...and the price difference is big alright...going to cry out at that moment of time...but luckily all the bookings have to go through me before landing into my supervisors' hands...and the agent didn't call back too...hopefully everything will go well, till i leave tradewinds...it was pris's last day ytd, shaun's last day today, siying's last day tml...and the remaining us? saturday. so today after work, went to retail dept and took some photos...hahs...;)had darling to help me collect the strudels today...tks so much darling, muacks! had mummy went to school to drive him back to his house to put his, then as well as collected mine...then sent him off to pass it to his uncle then to his training ground...that was so sweet of mummy...and that is with condition...darling and i owe her a favour now...hahas... well, it's another day at tradewinds tml...hopefully it's going to be alright... Wednesday, June 14, 2006
went to school as usual today...the only different thing is that i woke up early by half an hour to prepare breakfast for darling. hasn't been stepping into the kitchen for quite some time (other than cooking instant noodles...) so it was a little chaotic in the morning...hahas...but still, everything was alright...=)nevertheless, did the calls as usual...did auditing today...and more, some of the survey forms have to be void...so kinda disappointing...but well, never mind...just have to redo...then went out for steamboat with the group...that big group...reached home around 10 plus...right now blogging...but feeling too tired to continue further le... will update more perhaps tml...take care ppl. nites. Sunday, June 11, 2006
woke up this morning with flu...was feeling pretty bad in the morning and didn't want to go and teach tuition initially...but mummy convinced me that if i don't go today then i will have to go tml...which would be even more tiring...so i went to teach eventually. was raining heavily today...was a nice weather to be in bed though..and i had a nice nap too...hahas..darling arrived at 3 something, went down to pick him up because it was raining still. came up only too see that my grandparents were playing mahjong...so in order for mummy to cook the dinner, darling took on halfway through...he indeed felt stressed, but still i supposed it was fine...hahas...and soon more relatives came...and my house was filled with noise...kids' noise...hopefully darling was able to take it...imagine with 7 to 8 kids running in the house...argh...you wouldnt't want to experience that too...hahas. had dinner...there were pineapple rice, chicken rice, pig stomach soup, vegetables...it was just fabulous...hahas...and i have my first personal selling orders le...hahas... it's my last off day tml before my block leave the following week...cos it's the last week before the six of us leave tradewinds to return back to school. kinda will miss the days at tradewinds. but well, everything that has a start, definitely there would be an end...the only thing is that when it will end that's all... darling only left my place at 10pm tonight, will be seeing him on tues...he left after all my relatives left...and he managed to talk to my cousins. though vera was kinda still afraid of him. hahas. that i don't know why...;) but in all, it was a nice day with darling's accompany. being embraced in his arms is one of the best things that i can have when he is around, becos with him around, i shouldn't be afraid of anything at all..cos i know he'll be there... alright. it's another day for housework tml. while it's a school day for darling. ppl out there, take lots of care...have a good rest. nites. Friday, June 09, 2006
time just pass so fast...i am more or less left with another week with tradewinds. been having lots of talking with the peeps there other than just working...having fun too...simply love the atmosphere there though sometimes work can be kinda stressful...and moreover, with the new temps ard...kinda nice cos we are working on a 'big' mission...hahas...well, i am not saying that the school attachment is not good. that's great too...just that becos i don't go back there so often, so sometimes it take some time for me to get adapt back btw 2 environments...=) but i know when i get back to school, darling is there...sis was back from perth yesterday night...bought things for everyone in the family...including darling too...! hahas. that was sweet of her...but i supposed she did enjoy herself...the house is full of noise again after she was back since yesterday night...hahas... having dinner with the tradewinds group next saturday...don't know where to go for dinner yet...and heard that there's another gathering or something on wednesday for the 411 peeps. but not all are to be involved, i supposed so...it's the usual clique...;) darling said that i was invited too..but wondering wht to go, cos by the time i reached home......yups. that's why. and it's the usual clique in the call centre...kinda makes me slightly out of place when i m in the tradewinds grp though..=) well, the link is that i am his girlfriend...;) but at least with this, i know i am mixing well with them, though i am only back for 2 days per week... darling is coming over on sunday...hopefully he is able to come over earlier to accompany me...hasn't seen him for 2 days only. and i am missing him so. i can't imagine if it has to be a week before i meet him if we starts busy the next semester...kinda missing the surprise of hugging him from the back...hasn't got the chance to, cos he is always in front of me...=) so leave some chances for me alright..hahas..lol..though i don't mind if you are the one hugging me from the back...hahas...(alright, seems to be kinda straightforward...opps...hahas..) alright, need to go to work tml...it's gonna to be another day filled with my noise in the office...hahas..they got used to it anw...hahas...just love working on saturdays over at tradewinds...less stress...alright, peeps, take care and nites... Wednesday, June 07, 2006
3rd personal selling is on the way le...this time round, it's kueh lapis, mrs field's cookies and brownies, andersen's ice cream vouchers, and goodwood park hotel durian puffs...if anyone interested, you can gladly tag at my board or msg me if you have my contact...prices would be advised in a few days' time...we haven't collected our 2nd personal selling items yet, but the 3rd one is on already...aren't they rushing too fast a little...?anw, took an hour leave to send darling off today...and partially i was feeling tired too...darling was feeling very tired...can see de...he has been staying up till late wee hours...and thus not having enough sleep...when both of us are ppl who are in need of lots of sleep...hahas...and further, i was going to tradewinds tml..need more rest first...hahas..and it was nice of ms ming to grant me my leave at the last minute when i requested to have it...=) purpose of it was to spend more time with him this week though he is coming over this weekend...but still it would be another 4 days before we meet...gonna to miss him so much... heard that tradewinds has lots of updates this week, cos quite a few packages have expired already...but well, it's the last second week already, i should enjoy my days working there instead of grumbling...hahas.. wanna to go shopping...but on top of that, i want to somewhere else...not just shopping only...haven been there for quite some time le...perhaps it's time i should make a trip down...but the only thing to be different is that darling should be the one to accompany me there...=) been feeling pain at my left hand though. felt that there was a lump or something...kinda painful now. but i don't want to rub it, cos it is gonna to be very painful...;( alright, i think that's about it...take care peeps. nites. Tuesday, June 06, 2006
didn't have the intention to blog tonight actually...but suddenly i realised i have things that is better to be written rather than to be said...my bad habit is having its relapse...i am starting to keep things to myself again...and it would be hard to reveal them out once i decided to keep them...actually i have so many things to tell darling about...just alone for today...but guess the time is not sufficient to have many things said... i wanted to tell him that my mood wasn't feeling too good this morning after jeremy was back from the hospital appt ytd becos i worry that something might happen to him, becos he didn't make a noise when we were on our way to school...so i did the same, and didn't make a noise too. how much i needed him to be around today even though i had my frens ard, but he wasn't becos it was not convenient to, and further, he was busy... and that is not that i want to rely on him so much, is becos i lack of that sense of security at this moment of time even though i had some. i want to be independent too, and my environment doesn't allow me not to be independent. how much i needed a shoulder to lie on when i was thinking too deeply about jeremy's matter...since he is my only brother and there is nothing i can do to help him at all... all i need was just a tight hug to calm my uneasy mood down...to ease me off my worries as the eldest in the family...it's just this case when families have different encounters in life... and that i have clearly understood why darling cannot spend his time always with me...it doesn't matter and i understand why, cos i am learning to adapt to it...=) guess i had enough of rattling tonight...getting back to sch tml, gonna to be a long day. got calls to make. nites ppl. Monday, June 05, 2006
stayed at home the whole day today...did nothing much...but i managed to finish the show, "lu guang sen lin'...hahas. a pretty nice show that is currently showing on channel u...but i finished watching first...;) at the same time, finishing watching epsiode 17 of love of magicians...watched till i was crying today...hahas...cos the episode today was so sad...getting back to school tml...it's week 8 already...and i supposed the first performance apprasial is out...i wonder how am i going to be assessed when no one has assessed my calls over at tradewinds before? it's the same for pris too...;) i really wonder. well, as for darling, guessed that he have to buck up more...though i don't know how i flare this time round, later if scored the same as you...then...hahas... and also the block leave will be arriving for me in week 10...shd be taking this time to meet up with my dearest pal, stef...and see if there are other outings for me to fill my schedule for the week...though cin lee has msged me to ask me if i wanna to join them for a bbq at downtown east on the 20th...well, see how first...can't call stef yet cos she is having her papers...so only after thurs then i can disturb her...hahas... half a year gone le...it's already june..and very soon, i would have another year added to my age...will i have lots of wishes to be fulfil this year...?have i done anything fulfilling since the start of the year till now...other than having attached...which makes it one of my biggest turning point for thi year...which makes family and relatives think that i am growing up le...perhaps i really am...being in a relationship, it makes me think more and think into things that never has been in my mind before...lots of what if..but it doesn't matter when someone loves you as much as you do...;) i am simply enjoying my every moments with darling...and you are not going to get the second one coming along...hahas..lol...;) in the outings, perhaps it was ytd that i enjoyed the most though we went out late...don't ask me why...it's just the feeling...=) it's just a nice feeling to be taken care by someone you love...to have someone telling you that he's here with you in his arms when u are afraid of the dark...=) and i am just missing him that much, even if he is standing in front of me right now...missed him to the extent of not willing to let go of his hand when he sends me home...;) alright, i supposed that's enough...have to wake up at 6am tml morning...still waiting for darling's msg before turning in...nites ppl. Sunday, June 04, 2006
went to give tuition today...then supposed to have darling picking me up at 1230. but my dearest overslept, becos he slept late ytd...so in the end, he reached my place ard 1 plus...so we had lunch at home instead...and we left hse ard 2 plus near 3...catch the movie 'benchwarmers' at causeway point at 405...a pretty nice and comical movie...movie ended around 5 plus and then we moved off to northpoint to meet his daddy and sis for dinner...didn't really eat much during dinner just now...got full very easily tonight...usually i intake quite alot when it's sushi...but don't know why this time...well, meeting his daddy for the first time, was quite alright...able to chat, but not much, maybe becos its the first meeting...;) but in all, it was nice...had darling to send me to home after dinner...today was pleasantly sweet becos i haven't met darling for 4 days already...miss him so much...having my off day tml. not planning to get back to sch, cos i already settled with rong ci that we will finish up the proposal online instead...hahas. lazy to get back to sch on my off day...alright then, ppl take lots of care...as for darling. perform well for your presentation tml, though i m not there to see..and more, miss ur hugs and kisses...love ya. Saturday, June 03, 2006
sent sis to the airport ytd, she was going to perth for her field trip till next week...it feels so funny without her around in the house...went to tradewinds to work as usual on a saturday...the temps are joining us on saturdays as from next week...the office is gonna to be more crowded...other than daniel, who keeps on saying that i am the noisy one...;) kim yuen is getting crazy with us matching her up with the temps...hahas...poor her...but she is left with no choice but to hear them...hahas..but i have to admit, i am enjoying my attachment over at tradewinds, esp on saturdays...lol...which agents able to recognise you when u are only on attachment for 6 to 7 weeks...giving tuition tml morning, then before that, gonna to accompany mummy to the market for groceries shopping...then after tuition, getting out with darling to get stuffs...and do shopping since it's the GSS period now..hahas. meeting his dad and sister for dinner tml. it's exactly one week after darling met daddy...feeling pretty nervous at the moment...gonna to dress somehow of a casual tml...hahas...feel more at ease in this way...;) darling assured me that everything will go well tml...at least i think it would be the same as the meeting he had with daddy...=) as for darling not having enough time to accompany recently..it doesn't matter, it's already sufficient in my eyes... since you have your trainings and i don't expect you to skip them and i have my external attachment...we are coping it well enough even we both know that we are not having sufficient time for each other...it's getting on fine that i am simply enjoying every moment that's with you...we will make days available for just the both of us to get out when we are free...;) becos we also need our own personal space, we can't expect to see each other 24/7 isn't it? hahas. alright, needed my rest for tonight le..will blog in again when needed...ppl out there, take care... p.s happy birthday stef...one year older lor...but everything is gonna to go well for u...gonna to meet u up soon le...so keep a day free for me...;) Thursday, June 01, 2006
went off to tradewinds for today...not many updates though...but the calls today, not so bad...just that i have frequent callers le...=) and that tracy and bee lian recognises them as my 'girlfriends'...hahas...well, hopefully when i am being assessed tml then they wouldn't be this cruel to put me down...;) and i actually release the wrong set of documents out today..luckily the agent was nice enough to come back and exchange for the right one...hahas...the temps came in today, but not to the wholesales dept, its to the retail dept and the front desk counter...2 males and 1 female...=)it's our first month today. but both of us...perhaps take it that we are too tired, we didn't celebrate it tonight...though to me, first month signifies importance...but the third month signifies even more...well, we haven't been having enough rest though...for me, no matter how many hours u give me, i would still complain that the hours are insufficient...hahas...but well, things will get better and smoother for us though...darling asked me out for dinner tml, but i had to send my sis off, she is going for a school field trip...so i can't make it...promise, another day...? it's gonna to be another long day at tradewinds tml, esp when i am going to be assessed...just dislike this feeling of being assessed, but i guess i can't escape this after all...and i think my old injury is having a relapse or something...kinda felt a sharp pain in my knee when i was walking home just now...had to limp slightly to walk home just now...but i guess it's temporary...so it should be alright. no big worries about it...hopefully. alright ppl. it's gonna to be a long night for me tonight. kinda feeling somehow of a nervous becos of tml's assessment...take care alright. =) |
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